August 29, 2018 – 7:00 am
(After several months of holding back) Aha! I think my mind is finally made up. My family supports me, I mean, there is not even a hint of hesitation from them. Even my daddy says he is at peace with my decision. Most importantly I have prayed about it. I am really sure of this!
So sure mehn!
September 6, 2018 – 6:30 am
I’m humming to Jason Derulo’s beautiful “Goodbye” tune as I take the elevator to the infamous office not-so-frequently travelled. What a fantastic feeling! Could there be a more giddy feeling in the whole world?
I walk into HR’s office and before I can say a word, I’m told by one of the representatives to grab a chair.
I smell trouble, so I hold-off on why I’m actually here to see HR.
I’m told my shoe is non-compliant, and in a 20 minute long and heartfelt lecture, I’m warned never to wear it again or my next appraisal will be affected. Ke sì ma wòó o, the shoe isn’t non-compliant lai dat lai dat o; poor shoe…my heart goes out to it, but now I’m in a new fix.
How do I handover my resignation letter to the same representative that just gave me this TEDx talk? Being the omolúàbí that I am, I know it won’t be proper to do this; so I smile, say thank you, turn and hand over the letter to another representative.
“Oh, so you even came here to resign?” She remarks. “Yes ma” I respond, still smiling. Nothing actually beats this priceless moment 😅. I’m reveling in it and it fits me like a two-piece Louis Vuitton skirt suit.
I’ve never been more sure of anything. What a perfect life!
October 6, 2018 – 5pm
The sun is shining so brightly outside this huge building. I’m getting a lot of “Lydia, we will miss you greatly”. Such mixed-feelings! I’m leaving certainty for uncertainty. I’m leaving a couple of great people I’ve known and come to love over the years. I feel some sort of loss. But I still feel really good! I log out for the very last time.
First things first, I’m going to sleep for a whole month! 🤣😅. Why don’t I feel nervous about this new life I’m about to get into? Could it just be the initial euphoria?
November 14, 2018 – 9am
Work! Hard work!! Reaaaalyyyy hard work!!!
Guys, work has almost scraped my hair off mehn. I seem to have been working harder since I left my ‘9 to 5’ (even though, truth be told, it was never ever a ‘9 to 5’; more like a 7:30 to 6:30 for me).
But now it’s a lot like ‘8 to 9’ I can’t afford to faff around, but I’m glad because I am in total control of my time.
Did I mention? I started volunteering at this government secondary school and there is an inexplicable fulfilment that wells-up when these fellas say “Thank you for coming, Miss Tolu”.
I’m working harder now, despite the reduction in naira stacks compared to my previous job.
Anyhu this is sha still the life! I’m certain. *Licks coldstone*
December 22, 2018 – 6pm
I’m screaming with so much overwhelming glee! This is by far the best Christmas I’ve ever had! For the first time in my life I’m sharing love with over 100 under-served children all at once! So much time, planning, teamwork and hardwork has gone into this! Christmas is not just fun for me, it is value for some children who my team and I, with the help of a lot of amazing people have been opportuned to gift brand-new clothes and food to today.
I feel a rush of excitement mixed with contentment and the privilege to impact my community altogether.
Ahhhh Lord, I think I’m beginning to see the purpose and the light at the end of this long-ass tunnel. Never been more gingered in my entire life!
January 9, 2019 – 4am
Now that I’ve given up the good for the great, ehm, what next?
I feel mentally stressed.
I feel physically drained.
I think my skin is beginning to go two ways. Where exactly do I even belong? Please can someone define what “certainty” means again? Cause I think I’m not really understanding. Mehn, this life is so hard. So so hard. I’m so unsure of myself.
February 12, 2019 – 2pm
Faaammmm! I think I’ve finally gotten a hang of this. Can’t believe I even doubted myself! Toluleye you ehn! Chai! Folabomi closed so many sales this month, we even sold on Twitter for the very first time! We practically sold-out this soldier-girl pieces! This is making so much sense! Major sales coming up. I see the light! I was totally made for this! This is what assurance looks like!
March 3, 2019 – 4pm
A Hot Mess
I’m currently crying hot tears. I’m so frustrated! Such great loss! I did not bargain for this. I put so much effort into everything, why does it not seem to count?
My brother is giving me a heartfelt motivational talk of how such disappointments are bound to come with business. My sister-in-law is giving me a tight hug and just letting me mess-up her fine dress with my tears.
My friend who has also taken past hits in his business is on the phone with me telling me why I can’t give up.
I’m wiping my tears. I’m trying to suck it all up. They say I need to be strong, it’s part of the entrepreneurial initiation.
E pain me oo. I can’t even lie. Why do I feel like I wasn’t made for this? I feel like a hot mess.
O su mi mehn.
April 17, 2019 – 9am
A Beautiful Life
They were all right! They were absolutely right. I got a beautiful surprise that points to how God is beginning to make my hardwork payoff small small. Maybe it will all be worth it afterall. Yes, I still have a couple of falling and rising moments, but that’s what makes the soup sweet at the end. I’m learning a lot about emotional and business intelligence.
I would pick this life over any other.
Now I’m wondering why I got so hard on myself earlier.
I’m grateful for it all; the good, the bad, the ugly and the best that is yet to come.
For this life, I STAN!
Heyo, welcome to my life. 😊
Soldier-Girl Pieces 👗: Folabomi
Photography : Tixels